I've spent a lot of time over the past month or so planning and plotting new work. I came to my senses over the summer and developed a "who cares?" attitude when it comes to my work. I've been so stressed about trying to out-do myself that it has crippled me artistically and I have produced almost no work since I graduated 3 years ago. I decided that it doesn't matter how good it is, what matters is that I'm making, so I'm just going to start taking my ideas and running with them.
I've been playing with bird imagery in my mind for a while now. To me, birds represent a new level of freedom that I haven't been able to experience and are a reflection of a migratory nature. That urge to migrate and move, in whatever direction that may be, is currently strong in my mind, and I want to start conveying that in my work. I don't feel like I belong anywhere, and if I do, then I haven't found that place. Home doesn't feel like home.
In terms of specific birds, I like duality of a magpie. They are black and white, which I feel relates to my dueling personalities. I feel like I live two lives: the me that shows up to work every day and tries to come across as confident and put together, and the secret me, that is totally not. Having to live behind what I feel is a mask everyday is overwhelming and takes a toll emotionally.
How I am going to convey all of this in my work is still in process.
What I do know is that I want to go back to some of the things that I was doing when I first started in textiles, like collage and hand embroidery, and combining it with some of the things I was last doing, such as playing with transparency and watercolors. So here's a breakdown of what I'm working with:
I've been looking at a lot of images of historic quilts and Korean pojagi as inspiration.
The first piece that I want to do builds off of traditional flying geese quilts using, hopefully, a pojagi style technique. I have some sketches started and I am in the process of making patterns for my blocks because I want them to be all slightly different. Over the course of the next two weeks, I want to finish those patterns and create a couple samples of different sewing techniques.