I was able to meet my deadline and have the quilt finished by last Tuesday!
I was really worried for a little while that I was not going to make it. I spent all of the day on the Wednesday before Thanksgiving and the Friday afterwards working, but did not manage to meet my daily goals. Part of it was that I was thoroughly exhausted and hit a point where I just could not physically sew anymore. That doesn't happen very often, by the way. But I was able to pull through and have it done that Sunday. So now it's off to my boyfriend's mom to quilt and when I get it back, I just have to do the binding.
I'll take pictures when the whole thing is finished.
I am tired. Every part of my being is tired: my mind, my heart, my spirit. I took a break from sewing for a couple of days last week to rest and relax when I got home from work, but it didn't do much good. I've been living off of caffeine and ibuprofen because I haven't been able to sleep well (Advil PM is my new best friend) and I've had massive headaches. I know it's from stress and I am so glad there are two weeks of school left so I can finally, hopefully get a break.
With the few brief moments I've had to think, I've been thinking about the revamp of my work in progress Fly Away Home. I've decided to go with an indigo and white color palette, and I have decided to embroider on top of the quilting. I've been really inspired lately by the ceramic work of Sonia Pulido and Red Weldon Sandlin and it's helping to influence my design decisions.
I'm hoping to refine the template I made for my house and start dyeing fabric in the coming weeks. That's probably all I will have time for before Christmas break, but it's a start.
I've spent a lot of time over the past month or so planning and plotting new work. I came to my senses over the summer and developed a "who cares?" attitude when it comes to my work. I've been so stressed about trying to out-do myself that it has crippled me artistically and I have produced almost no work since I graduated 3 years ago. I decided that it doesn't matter how good it is, what matters is that I'm making, so I'm just going to start taking my ideas and running with them.
I've been playing with bird imagery in my mind for a while now. To me, birds represent a new level of freedom that I haven't been able to experience and are a reflection of a migratory nature. That urge to migrate and move, in whatever direction that may be, is currently strong in my mind, and I want to start conveying that in my work. I don't feel like I belong anywhere, and if I do, then I haven't found that place. Home doesn't feel like home.
In terms of specific birds, I like duality of a magpie. They are black and white, which I feel relates to my dueling personalities. I feel like I live two lives: the me that shows up to work every day and tries to come across as confident and put together, and the secret me, that is totally not. Having to live behind what I feel is a mask everyday is overwhelming and takes a toll emotionally.
How I am going to convey all of this in my work is still in process.
What I do know is that I want to go back to some of the things that I was doing when I first started in textiles, like collage and hand embroidery, and combining it with some of the things I was last doing, such as playing with transparency and watercolors. So here's a breakdown of what I'm working with:
I've been looking at a lot of images of historic quilts and Korean pojagi as inspiration.
The first piece that I want to do builds off of traditional flying geese quilts using, hopefully, a pojagi style technique. I have some sketches started and I am in the process of making patterns for my blocks because I want them to be all slightly different. Over the course of the next two weeks, I want to finish those patterns and create a couple samples of different sewing techniques.