I just wanted to take a moment to officially thank my friends, old and new, for all of their support over the last month or so.
Things definitely haven't been easy and it has been wonderful knowing that I have a close group of people I can rely on whenever I need them. There's been a lot of tears and staring off into space wondering why in the world all this was happening to me and I appreciate all the hugs and kisses and encouraging words that you have given me. There's nothing like being able to drive an hour on the spur of the moment and lie in a "therapy" bed when you just need to have a cry or being able to make a phone call while sitting in your car in a cemetery hours away from home wondering why you can't be six feet under too.
It has been a month of change and choices: the good, the bad, and the good that are seemingly bad at the time. It has been a month of learning to stand up for myself and making things happen instead of simply wishing them to. It has been a month of letting go and moving on and stopping to take some well deserved deep breaths.
I am happy and sad and scared out of my mind. Change sucks, but in this case, it's all good.
So, thank you. Thank you for giving me advice when you know I can be exceptionally bad at taking it. Thank you for sticking by me even with my inability to make decisions. Thank you for letting my cry when there was no real reason to be crying in the first place. Thank you for offering to let me crash on your couch. Thank you for letting me rant and rave and complain. Thank you for showing me personal happiness is not selfish. And thank you for never judging me for any of it.
You are all awesome and I love you.