Things have changed so rapidly in the past month or so of my life and I am anticipating even more big changes in the future.
I've bounced back and forth the past several weeks as to what I actually want to do with my life, because frankly, I just don't know. I'm a creature of habit, and changes, especially big ones, scare the crap out of me. I've bounced back and forth between wanting to move and not, applying for new jobs and not...but recently, I've had a lot of time to sit down and really think about what would actually be good for me.
Those that know me well know that one of the best jobs I've ever had was when I was working as a teacher at the GMA. I loved it! And I was incredibly happy and passionate about the time I spent as a graduate assistant at the Gray Gallery and as an intern at Emerge. The more and more I think about what I want to do with my life, the more I have come to realize that I really love the museum/gallery environment. I love the logistics. I love interactions with artists and the public. I love organizing and installing exhibitions. There is just something incredibly gratifying about the immense amount of hard work that goes into it and knowing that others get as much joy out of it as you do.
And so, I think, I want to go back to school, hopefully starting next spring. This has been an incredibly difficult decision for me to make in and of itself. I swore, after the awfully stressful time I had in graduate school previous that I was done and that I would never go back. I'm afraid of the insane amount of debt I will be in if I do go back. I'm afraid I'll become a perpetual student. I'm afraid that I will never get the job I want not matter what I do and then spending thousands of dollars and three more years of my life at college will be worthless. But, I've come to realize with the two dozen or so jobs I've applied for in museums in the past month, that if it is really a career I want to pursue, then getting a MA in Museum Studies is probably the route to go. Because, aside from the little experience I have, I really have no idea as to the complex way museums operate. And that is experience I need.
Nothing is set in stone, but I am looking into George Washington University's museum studies program. I've already been in contact with people from the department and I am planning on visiting there in April over my break. I've already missed the deadline for all admission, which is kind of a blessing because that it a lot of change (not to mention money) too soon and too fast. So I will have to wait and apply for the following spring, if they will even accept students in the spring because that is something they don't always do.
So, I guess we shall see. Until then, I shall remain teaching and making art and hoping that things work out the way that they are supposed to.