As June draws to a close, I wanted to think back on the last six months of my life. I haven't been posting much because I haven't been working much: mainly because 2015 has really sucked so far. And that's putting it lightly.
In the last six months or so, I have moved, separated from my husband, put all my stuff in storage, and moved again. Moving home at 26 was not something I ever thought that I would have to do, but there was no way I could afford to support myself on such short notice. Unfortunately, that also meant an hour and a half commute (one way) to work every day for several months, but it did mean that I was able to work for my mom and weekends and save up to get my own place. So, I get to move again at the end of July.
I've officially decided I hate moving and will be staying put for at least a year.
But, ultimately, I believe all this has been a good thing. I feel free at least, to do what I want, when I want to. That's something I can say I haven't had the luxury of doing in a while. Having a burden like that, psychological or physical or whatever it was, has allowed me to focus on me for a change. I've lost a little bit of weight. I haven't had a breakdown in months and overall I feel...good.
I have no idea what to expect in the second half of 2015. Moving again, sure. School starting back, yes. But, professionally and artistically? I couldn't begin to guess. I've spent my summer working with a friend on tailoring work, which has been a learning experience. Sewing garments has always been something of which I had very little knowledge. Not because I wasn't interested, it's just never something I had the time to pursue in school. But, I've been thrown head-first into it and I really like it. I can work at it all day and not feel like I'm doing any work.
I find it kind of funny because when I was in high school, I desperately wanted to work in costuming. I kind of gave up on that dream for some reason. Honestly, I couldn't tell you what it was: impracticality or a desire to do something else... I have interest in a great many things and tend to let myself get pulled in many different directions. But, now I kind of want to start pursuing it again.
So, things are still kind of up in the air.
I'm just waiting for them to come back down and fall into place.